I want so much to come back. Back to where I was better. Where I happier. I don’t think I have ever truly been HAPPY. I have been happyish though, I think. I was doing ok. I was talking, learning to trust, other people and myself, then smack, chronic illness, again. I have never, that I can remember a super healthy person. I am usually battling one virus or bacteria,or some kind of infection. I also battle my mind which often goes rouge. I think this blog helps I am not really very good at it. I hope with some practice I can get better at it. So I am coming back. I hope it is the first step back from where I have been. Where I dove head first after Edog left. I want to come back. I hope I can someday.