This past week I have felt my age in full force. Granted I am not old, but I feel for the first time all that I have lost. I am seeing for the first time how little I have to show for my 36 years. I have often felt very young. Sort of arrested, like my development stopped at a young age. I have certainly suffered from Peter Pan syndrome. Suddenly,however I am seeing very clear.  I grieve for the young girl I was. I also am at a loss as what to do. I wish that I had so many things so my plan is to go out and get them. I have no idea where to start. However I will begin with prayer.